In the here and the now

Well, God has a plan. I don’t know exactly what it is… and he seems to be stacking the cards against me right now. I was just notified I need to buy insurance for myself as a student pilot, which is pretty obvious, but then the price comes up and I just keep praying for faith seeing as how it took about half the savings I had left for flight. Also, I’ve been trying to get ahold of these doctors so that I can get retested for ADHD, but for some reason my calls aren’t going through, or they aren’t returning the calls. I was thinking about when my life turned upside down in Bolivia for a while. It seemed like God was taking everything away from me, and it took a lot of faith to continue to trust in him. I feel like my faith grew in a huge way because he basically tore down any plan I had for my life at the time. And it made me wonder if my faith in him is weaker now then it was then because I’m still here praying for him to help me trust. Then I realized it’s a different kind of faith. In Bolivia yeah my whole future kind of fell apart, but I had money for food and to live and I was financially ok. So my faith was that God would show me his plan for my future in his time. But this feels like a different level, this kind of faith isn’t based on the future but the here and now. I’m facing issues now that will affect me in the next week or so. I’m seeing that I cannot continue without God working some miracles, and it’s pushed me pray more sincerely for him to give me more faith. I’m just going to keep doing my part, and believe that He will continue to open the way for me. But! I could always use prayers. Specifically that I will pass all this neuropsychological testing, and for God to continue to provide the funds for me if this is really what his will is for my life.